LJUBAVI I PROKLTESTVA, MAJKO
Kažu da to nije bilo,
al jeste
Kažu nisam dobro videla,
al jesam.
Strah me nadeva sa svih strana
istina je.
Urlam u sebi da li je u redu,
al urlam.
Krijem ono što vidim,
al moram.
Znam boli to moju mamu,
al mama,
Probudi me usred noći glad,
zašto?
Popijem čašu vode, glad je tu,
zašto?
Ko može razumeti gotovo sve,
ali niko.
Ne gladuje stomak od gladi,
ali zašto?
Neko je kriv,
a ko?
Po stoti put gole noge i grudi,
ali.
Sunce se bori da izađe, pa i ono u grudima,
ali čemu, kome?
I jeste
i jesam
Istina je
istina je.
Urlala sam,
morala sam
I šta sad,
MAMA?
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LOVES AND DAMNATIONS, MOTHER
They said that it didn’t happen,
Though it did
They said I didn’t see well,
But I did.
The fear seizes me from all sides
It’s the truth.
I groan inside me if that is right,
But I groan.
I hide what I see,
But I have to.
I know it hurts my mother,
But mamma,
Hunger wakes me up in the middle of the night,
why?
I drink a glass of water, hunger is still present,
why?
Who can understand almost everything,
But no one.
The tummy is not hungry of hunger,
But why?
Someone is guilty,
But who?
For the hundredth time naked legs and chests,
But,
The sun is fighting to rise, and it is in the chests,
But why, who for?
And it is
And I am
It is true
It is true.
I groaned,
I had to
And what now,
MAMMA?
Tatjana Debeljački
